So dark as sages say;
Oft a little morning rain
Foretells a pleasant day.
Sometimes there are clouds of gloom,
But these are transient all;
If the shower will make the roses bloom,
O why lament its fall ?

Rapidly, merrily,
Life's sunny hours flit by,
Gratefully, cheerily,
Enjoy them as they fly !

What though Death at times steps in
And calls our Best away ?
What though sorrow seems to win,
O'er hope, a heavy sway ?
Yet hope again elastic springs,
Unconquered, though she fell;
Still buoyant are her golden wings,
Still strong to bear us well.
Manfully, fearlessly,
The day of trial bear,
For gloriously, victoriously,
Can courage quell despair !

Charlotte Bronte

I recently finished Jane Eyre, so I'm in a Bronte mood. As far as I'm concerned, it's one of the best novels in English literature. The characters have the depth of real people, which is so hard to come by nowadays...it's genius, really. I almost love it more than Wuthering Heights, which is saying a lot because I worship that book.

I've realized now that it's all about character for me. I don't place much value in plot, though I can appreciate the effort and intricacies. I get joy when I read about interesting characters, not about the action in their lives, but in how they react even to the simplest things. Marquez is my favourite writer for that reason. I don't relate to his characters, really, but they are so human, so complex, that I don't know what to do with myself. The narrator of Memories of My Melancholy Whores, for instance, is...ridiculous. So brilliant. I love that book. Personally, I think if people judge books on whether they relate to the protagonist or not, they are never going to be completely satisfied. It's the wrong way to approach reading, in my opinion. The narrator is one, ninety years old, two, male, and three, essentially a playboy. I didn't read it and try to relate to him, because that would be unlikely. I went in open minded, and in the end I did relate, in the strangest ways. The only thing a reader should look for in regards to relatability should be in the character's humanity. If they are believably human, with real emotions, the reader will at least understand, if not relate, to the character. It shouldn't be about their situation. I think for Marquez it is all about character, which is why I love his writing so much.

So, to sum up...I love the Bronte sisters (well, I don't know about Ann, but the other two at least) and Marquez is a literary genius. Go read his stuff, now. It's addictive though, so be warned.

Beckett....I love you.

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Watch this! At least just the first two minutes.

Here's the script if you're interested in actually understanding what they're saying: [link]

Beckett is GENIUS! I love it And the director did an amazing job in the film version. [link] The website for the film (the interviews with the actors are really interesting)

And even if you're not a fan of absurdism then the cast is brilliant- Juliet Stevenson, Kristin Scott Thomas...ALAN RICKMAN! Three of my fav actors definately. Listen to their voices...perfect! I'm ridiculously jealous. I could listen to Alan Rickman aaallll day haha (is it odd that I'm like obsessed with him because of his voice? I've always had this weird thing with unique voices, particularily stage voices...and people with talent haha. Ok, way off topic, and now you all know I'm a freakXP)

I dunno, am I weird? I just think this is SO cool haha.

I've decided to try and really get "connected" to myself, whatever that means. I just feel really disconnected from everything, like I'm living more in the media than in the real world. So I plan on spending more time in a creative place, just painting and drawing, writing, start up my music again, maybe even write a song or two.

Yeah, this isn't really that important, and it's not like anyone reads this anyway lol.

On the other hand, I just bought three books, those 'enguin classics'. I got the third one free, which was pretty sweet. One was Great Expectations, which I already have, but the cover was gorgeous so I bought another copy ahaha. Is that bad? I really do judge books by their covers. Does anyone else have this desire to own multiple editions of the same book? I'm trying to refrain from buying this amazing gift edition of Wuthering Heights I found on amazon, and theres this incredibly adorable copy of The Hobbit that I found in Chapters and didn't buy and now I'm sad

I admit it. I have an addiction to bookstores.

Has anyone read The Law of Dreams? About Ireland during the Great Hunger around 1850? It was different from anything I've read, and it was Canadian too, which I don't read much of. It was really truthful and powerful, I was surprised. It's not the best writing ever, but then again I'm comparing it to what? Marquez? Is that really fair? No, it was pretty good.

So I decided to make an account for my writing not in association with my other account.

I actually don't write that much, art is more my forte, but I sort of hoped this would encourage me to work on my writing.

Anyway, I'm not in a very good place right now. Low self esteem etc. etc. Rejection is not good for the soul. Why do I do it? Because acceptance and recognition is completely worth it, and there's also the fact that I might go insane without it. I swear it's a drug. I'd be that person you see, walking down the street reciting monologues to themselves. Oh, wait...I already do that! Ah, well, I guess I wouldn't exactly be in my right mind to begin with. Honestly, acting is way more real than reality, and even though that sounds completely paradoxical it makes unbelievable sense to me.

I love acting. It's so much more than real life.